it's not my fault we have an inefficient snow removal policy
I wish we had one.
So I'm officially crazy.
And I'm hallucinating.
Um you are injecting hormones (in oil)...that'd make you crazy
brb, flipping pancakes
what are you crazying about?
so I have these STUPID-SENSITIVE test strips
lemmie find link
10u of hCG
these aren't your momma's hpt strips
have been testing out the hCG trigger
was out on the evening of 3dp3dt
and I considered it "officially" out on morning of 4dp3dt
Took one yesterday and nada.
meaning that it isn't in your system anymore?
and any hcg would come from a pregnancy?
No biggie, nothing appears because Happy and Grumpy are still implanting (fingers crossed)
so I pee this morning
dip for 3 seconds
and again, nothing
but because I'm insane and love to torture myself
ugh, brb, last pancake to flip
I tortured myself by googling "6dp3dt"
and followed a link to this other insane infertile woman
who got a pos hpt
but like, BARELY
like, at first I thought "girl, you crazy."
then I looked at a different picture of the same test and was like
great, now I'm crazy, too because I see it
so I went back to my test (still sitting on the bathroom counter, waiting out the 5 minute thing)
and I saw something. but don't get excited, because I totally didn't see anything
because I'm insane
and because I want to see something
do you have a picture?
no, sometimes you can see the faintest of faint lines
no, after about 20 minutes of squinting and rubbing eyes, I flushed the damned thing because it was taunting me
i don't think you are crazy
No, really, I think it was the negative image of the control line
so not only was I seeing lines that weren't there, but I was hearing the little, evil voice of the hpt
see? officially nucking futs
it's a good sign really
what, being crazy??
I was at my nucking futtiest when I was pregnat.
awesome. looking forward to being even crazier than I am on any given day. I honestly didn't think there was a higher level of crazy.
I am giddy with excitement for you
it's like Dante's levels of batshit crazy
just you wait, henry higgins, just you wait!
and we TOTALLY do it to ourselves
being infertile is a physical disease AS WELL as a mental disorder
moreso with the latter
ok, I have a wee pancake waiting for me
one wee pancake
and cold coffee
yeah, mine is cold
let me know what your test looks like tomororw
because we all know you will be testing tomorrow
a sign of a momma...cold coffee
hell, I'd planned on peeing in a cup right before bed tonight
well let me know then, too!
I do have an arsenal of these things, after all
batshit crazy #1, over and out
And to further prove that I am, indeed, insane, here's a picture: